For those sleepless nights!!!

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Home Alone

Evie was 7 weeks old when Jim passed and now she is starting school. Time passes so fast! I can't believe my kiddos are both in school now. Today is my first day home ALONE! What is a mommy to do with herself? Oh yea, dirty clothes, cleaning house, grocery shopping, etc. And let's not forget the massive hill that needs mowing! Oh well, even though they are both in school now my life has not slowed down.

Love Happens

Okay, so I haven't blogged in some time. I always seem to have a bad habit of taking time off but I have a wonderful reason why this time. I FELL IN LOVE again. That's right! I have met a wonderful man named David who won my heart. Actually, we sort of knew each other from church years before. It's funny how I look back on the time we first met and never thought I would look at him as being the man I fall in love with. God works in crazy ways but I sure do like his way of working. I will keep you posted but for those of you who have experienced the loss of a spouse, keep the faith. God knows...

Five Favorite Things

So over the past couple of days I have been talking with a new friend via text. One of the questions asked between the two of us was, name five of your favorite things. After I quickly responded, I decided that I would share them with you.

1. My kids always behaving

2. Money

3. Alcohol with no hangover

4. Food with no calories

5. Sleep undisturbed

Welcome back to my blog and stay tuned for more bitching, praising and random talking about ME!

A Battle Lost

Have you ever come across people in your life that have to use hatred, rudeness, cruelty and many other "nasty" forms of expression to over come the pain they have endured throughout their life?

Well, I have lately. I even sunk to their level once and threw the nasty back to them but NO MORE. I felt worse from intentional trying to hurt them than I did from stomaching their harsh words. Now, I am the first to stand up and admit my faults. I know I can be extremely unbearable at times but I NEVER set out to deliberately hurt anyone.

I think the worse thing about people of this nature is I just want to embrace them and remind them that there are great doors that can be opened and true happiness does lie behind them. But somehow the closer you try to get, the nastier they become.

So, today I wave my white flag to all you nasty people who have displaced your pain. Please know that you are doing no one, not even yourself, justice.

A Single SuperStar!

That's right folks, I am a single SUPERSTAR! I somehow made it to the famous iListPaducah.com page again as the iDate of the week. How fun is this?

You know what though, I feel like I have really conquered the single world in my life. Really! TASK accomplished! But somehow my grade got changed to an F and I am having to repeat it again. So with the help of Match.com and now, iListPaducah.com, I am bound to find my soul mate #dos!

Yeah right, I have this feeling I will be repeating this grade aka status, many times and mainly due to me being picky, but he's out there. I just know it. Until then, cheers to me for my Super Stardom in the Single World!

Operation Get Kids Healthy

Okay, so every Wednesday the kids go to gymnastics for an hour. This past week I noticed Stetson huffing and puffing after 15mins of playing hard. I couldn't believe that I let him get to this point of being so out of shape at the age of 5. I haven't been the healthiest person in my life but over the past 8 months I have really changed. Now it is time for me to step up to the plate and help change my kids but mainly my son. I refuse to bury my son because he passed of heart disease so this is my full-time mission! This isn't a "I hope to succeed" mission, this is a " I HAVE TO succeed" mission!

2920 Days

Although I didn't get to sleep through February, I did however survive it. Today is March and I have 365 days until I have to do it all over again. March 1st just might be my favorite day of the year. For some reason, this year has been harder than last year. I pondered on why this could be, and I am thinking my life should be more "together" by now and you know what, it is so far from it. Had you of asked me 4 years ago where I thought my life would be by now, I would have said, stable and secure with a job, kids and hopefully a new love. So far, I have accomplished the mere task of making sure my kids are well, and that in fact has been hard by itself. As for the other two, I am unemployed and unloved by a special someone. So I wonder, is it going to take me 3 times longer to accomplish these goals? Lord, I hope not. If so, I can expect to be employed, loved and well kids in 2920 days. That within itself can make me depressed and knowing that I will be 39 before this happens, well, I think I might just go back to bed now. Goodnight...ugh...

Half Way There

BLAH, BLAH, BLAH! The weather matched my attitude and emotions on this dreaded V day. So, what did I do? Hmm...I woke up, visited with my parents for a few, came home to take a nap, order a pizza, painted with the kids and made mimosas. Honestly, I acted like the holiday didn't even exist. The only good thing that comes from this day is I know February is half over. Thank goodness it is the shortest month of the year.

Cheers!

Super Woman

So as you all know, I hate February. I just want to take the strongest sleeping pill and wake up in March, but unfortunately I don't have that option. So, I deal with it. I relive the pain of losing Jim all over again. My sister-n-law said it best once, "there is just an irie feeling that comes over me in February." And bless her heart, she had to experience the pain of losing her brother on her birthday. The day he was buried, she celebrates another year of life. Ironic, huh? Either that, or just another one of God's tests. I have had a lot of people call me "Super Woman" but she is truly a "Super Woman" to me. So cheers to you Sarah and happy birthday!

I curse you February!

It is hard to imagine that my 7 week old is now 4 years old and my 16 month old is now 5 years old. Those were the ages of my children 4 years ago when their dad passed away. It is so hard to imagine that it has been that long. Yet at the same time, I can't remember raising children with him. I have learned to do it all for so long that actually having someone around is, well, a bit incomprehensible.

February is hard and dreaded every year now. Jim had his stroke on February 1st, passed away on the 3rd and buried on the 6th. He proposed to me on the 14th and my birthday is only to follow on the 28th. So now, I CURSE this month!

Here Are My Bread Pictures!

Keeping my fingers crossed and...

HERE WE GO!

Some Things I Never Learned

OKAY GUYS, I AM BACK! SORRY FOR BEING GONE FOR SO LONG!

Jim was the cook in our family and he was a great cook. He actually did all the grocery shopping for the family. I did the occasional baking cookies, pies etc but to actually cook a piece of meat was never in my "wife duties." Since his death, I have cooked chicken nuggets, chicken breasts and meatloaf. Everything else was salads, precooked meat, pastas etc. So today was a break through for me. I cooked pork chops with a wine reduction sauce. Go ME!!

Along with pork chops, I am making potato bread. I know all this isn't extremely healthy but I am having fun. The bread is still rising so you only get to see this part. Hopefully I will get a picture of the finally product. Crossing fingers!

Now, what in the world were the kids doing while mommy was cooking? Well, here are those pictures too. I have a mess in my house but we all had a blast!

Check out where I have been the past two months!

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Ten Guilty Pleasures

1. Pizza - I love pizza! Thin crust pepperoni and pineapple. This combine makes me weak in the knees!

2. A KID FREE NIGHT - I love my kids but boy, I love them being away for the night.

3. Grey's Anatomy - Even though I cry like crazy at almost every episode, I love that show!

4. Wine - RED WINE

5. Web Window Shopping - I know...crazy, but love the thought of possibly buying one day.

6. Beach bumming - Nothing but sun!

7. Photography - LOVE!

8. Traveling - especially last minute trips

9. Chick Flicks - Corny movies

10. Manuals - I love to read manuals. I know, I am strange but I want to know how everything works.

Failed

I have failed at a lot of things lately. One being my 30 day challenge, another BLOGGING, and last but not least, dating. So, I apologize to you for not blogging, I apologize to my ass for not working out and I apologize to the guy who let a great girl slip away.

Speaking of slipping away, I think I am going to slip away from the dating world once again. I really can't take many more first dates. I am wanting to start making up stories just to mix it up a little bit. I feel like I am at a new doctors office filling out a medical questionnaire. I try hard to get through it as fast as possible because I know that I never have nor never will have prostate cancer! That is how I am with a first date. Seriously, I get so tired of talking about my favorite foods or what I like to do for fun. It sure as hell isn't going out on first dates!

However, you can tell how good I am on keeping my word (cough, cough), that if anything changes I will keep you posted. For now...AHHHHH, no more first dates! Stupid Cupid!

30 Day Challenge

So, I am starting the 30 day challenge on July 5, 2009! My goal is to lose at least 15lbs and increase my energy. The weight is important but the ENERGY is extremely important. I will log everything I eat, drink and all of my workout time, etc. I will also bitch a lot along with brag a lot when my pants start fitting better. So, if you are not up to my challenge, then you might want to refrain from coming to my blog for 30 days. I will however, keep posting pics and blogs in conjunction to this challenge.

A Miracle!

Some of you know but for those of you who don't, my brother was in a wreck this past weekend. He is a semi-truck driver and as you can tell from the picture, he is one lucky man to have only walked out with a few cuts and bruises. The good Lord was seriously watching over him. I believe he may have even had a very special Angel holding the truck to keep it from falling off the overpass. My brother is a best friend to me. He has been by my side ever since Jim's death and more than anything, a father figure to my kids. I have to say, this accident really scared me and I am sending kisses and prayers to the heavens above for keeping him with us.